feeling around. env.

Look around.

Happiness. Confusion. Sadness. Madness.

Where do I fit in Somewhere inside my mind, in the room deep inside loud music. to shut out the world. to escape the activity the worth of human life. to try to be happy in my arrogance.

the world is filled with great things. none that i can call my own. none that i contributed towards.

people have lives. things to remember. great things. none that i can comprehend. understand.

people talk of love. compassion. empathy. things i miss.

is something missing. lost.

silly things that seem to matter to them.

is it me. pain lifts me. murder. anger is all i can feel.

i search for lost hope. methodically i fill my life with uselessness.

stop. feel. hope. die.