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it now takes great effort, writing-putting down more than plain facts. Life spilled out onto paper easily before corruption of my self with a bloated ego. To publisize thoughts, demand credit, attract attention. i am cought in the strugle to be better, better so that others take notice. More than words, it is required to fill pages with meanings. Not to emphasize the self but to breathe life into prose.The 'I' floods all meaning obscuring the object of life. Putting all feelings and emotions under a veil of narsicism.